A few years ago, after experimenting a very painful breakup, I felt very low. I was at this time a law student and was completely overwhelmed by my emotions. Lost in fear, guilt and a mix of other uncomfortable feeling,
I experienced insomnia and some other disturbances.
One night of ones of my sleepless night, I listened a meditation video.
Not very sure about it, but after all, I had nothing to lose at this point.
I was listening passively, when, suddenly, I felt like disconnected from myself. A strange feeling of “nothing”. I touched something else, or more accurately, I touched Nothing. It surely went just for some microsecond, but this instant,
this instant of nothing has changed my life.
It has been the day I understood I wasn’t my thoughts.
My thoughts could continue their small talks, I wasn’t there anymore. I was in a quiet place. A place of peace. Place of nothing.
My journey has after that been very long and even painful. I continued my law studies until a point where I felt totally dead inside. Far away any kind of purpose, I felt my life didn’t have any sense. 4 years being valedictorian of my promotion, I decided to quit.
I decided to quit to connect me again to this space of quietness, to give space to this new space I found within me.
Since then the journey has been wonderful.
After traveling to India, Mexico and Canada, I establish my new home in Brazil.
Brazil which turned out to be the most wonderful place I have visited so far. I have the impression that all these trials, these doubts and adventures, must have led me exactly to where I am today.
To create, breathe and just, live.
I paint these pieces the last month.
The day I found a quiet the new place where I paint. It’s an old convent.
The first day I walked in here, I felt a perfect energy to connect directly with my emptiness.
The point of nothing that allows to touch the everything.